Point to Ponder: There is more to life than just here and now
Verse: "This world is fading away, along with everything it craves. But if you do the will of god, you will live forever." 1 John 2:17 (NLT)
Question to Consider: since I was made to last forever, what is the one thing I should stop doing and the one thing I should start doing today?
When I did this book previously, I never got to this point. I am lost in should I answer this as the old me or the new me. For the old me, it would be easy, I would say, "stop being angry" and "start loving your family the way God wants you to love them". I wouldn't actually have said that though, because I was in denial that the problem was mine and not everyone else's. No, I probably would have put the book down and not answered it because it would have forced me to look at something I just was not ready to look at.
God, Lord Jesus, I have so many questions, more questions then this book has. Why have you saved me now? Why now after I have turned my back on you, after I mocked you to my friends and even my family? Why now? Why not a year ago before it was too late for Joe and I? Why allow me to continue hurting everyone when it was always in your power to slap me upside my head and make me stop behaving the way I was.
Why fill me with these feelings of confidence and patience now? They all needed it so long ago? What is your intention for me? What do you need me to do?
Don't you know I am hard headed? Don't you know you have to spell it out for me? What is the right thing, what is the wrong thing, I look for answers, but they all seem out of reach. What is what I want and what is what you want? Do I want it so badly because you are impressing it on my heart? Or am I just being stubborn? I really really need to know God because I don't want to go through any more pain and I don't want to put anyone else through anymore pain. I just want peace, joy and love. I want you Lord. What is your intention for me? Please help me to understand what you need from me.
Oh, I seem to have gotten very far away from the question Lord, but it is so hard to not know what is YOUR voice and what is MY desire.
The question is what would I stop doing and what would I start doing. I would stop being so self absorbed. I would try to be more still and to hear the Lord's desire for me and my life. I would want to live every day in service to Him and to my loved ones. Nothing is more important than God or my family. Nothing will ever get in the way of my relationship with my Father again.
Lord please, hear my cries for mercy from this journey I find myself on. I want only what you want but I am so unsure of what that is. I just wish I wasn't so dense.... I love you Father God, I love you so much and I am so, so thankful that you saved me from myself and that you have given me this opportunity to love you and appreciate your role in my life.
Thank you God, Thank you... Thank you.... there are just not enough words to say it,, thank you....
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